A revelation??

It's weird..But it actually feels nice writing a blog..Its kinda fun seeing what u think in writing!!About my blog of yesterday, Krishna said,"it was a candid expression... i liked it a lot... reminded me of the shraddha i once knew so well"..Have i changed that much that people don't recognise me anymore or have i just stopped talking..I don't know..I do get complaints all the time that i don't talk..But i do!!I am not much of a talker anyway..But i tell everything i can..

There are only a few people in this world whom i can tell almost everything to(actually its just one person now) but even that everything is "censored"..There are loads of emotions i feel that i can't even tell him..Not because i wanna hide anything or coz i am ashamed of those feelings, but it's sort of inherent in me..I can't tell anyone everything..And it does suffocate me..But i am trying to improve that!!I guess this is mainly coz i am tired of being judged..And ultimately i have realised that there are things better not talked about..I know i can solve them within me, and even if i can't, atleast that other person doesn't get hurt..I know i will manage with it..This is one of the few benefits of being a single child..You learn to live with yourself and be happy too..

Maybe years have changed me..Maybe i have become more of an introvert,more cynical..But how should that matter..I am still me.....And i still like me..I hope "you" do too..... :)

Me..Just me..

I can't believe that i am writing a blog..If u know me, you'd know that i am not your "average" writing type of girl!!But i realised..I don't know what..But i just know that i realised..
I have no complaints against anything..I don't regret anything..I might not feel it at that particular moment, but in hindsight, I have always felt that..I, like everyone, has these moments in life where i feel that life is being biased against me, but it has given me everything i deserved..Both good and bad..I am not an idealist..I believe every relationship has fights..I believe that u have to cry to laugh..I believe that people have hurt me, but i have hurt them more..Right or wrong..I don't care..
I am the sort of person who is content having just a couple of friends who i can trust blindly..People mistake me for being arrogant..I am a little (i also believe that it is necessary to have a "little" arrogance, though "little" is open for negotiations!) but i am not as bad as people think i am..Please don't mistake this as being a clarification of who i am or a justification of any kind, coz its not..I care for very few people in this world..And its their opinion only which counts..Rest..Well.......
I am terribly complicated..And confused..But if i love you, i will do everything for you..I like to believe that i don't expect people to understand me but then i would be lying..I am selfish..Who isn't..But i try to not let that come in between of anyones happiness..I know i have failed in loads of relationships..People won't believe me, but i have tried to give my best..I am not good enough for them i guess..
I know i have a terrible temper..And i know i say things when i am angry that i don't mean..But, though i am working on it, I don't think its improving much..I like to crib..I believe its everyones right!!But i know i am satisfied..
I am not trying to portray myself as being anything..A friend just said that i am being too candid here..I don't think anyone cares enough to even read this..Just another attempt..To untangle myself..