Failure..In life..

Its weird how i have failed in everything in life that is important..To me or to others..Be it love, friendship, expectations, happiness..everything..

God knows I try, he knows how hard I try to keep those important me, happy..Somehow i have always failed..Whatever I do is either misinterpreted, misunderstood or not understood at all..I know I have my weaknesses..But I do try to not let it come in other's happiness..It is just getting tougher and tougher..Am lost..What to do..I suffocate myself at times..Just feel like running away..I know its a loser attitude..But I seem to have no other solution right now..When will things get simpler..When will I be able to say that i am actually capable of keeping my loved ones happy..

This is who i am..

I don't understand..Why does the world have a problem with who i am??I am that kind of a person who gives a sh** about what others say or think..Then why do others bother about it..That too those people who i am close to??I quite like myself!Why should i curb myself for people who don;t even matter in my life just coz they have a certain image of me in their minds..I know i have my weaknesses..But so what..Shouldn't the only thing that should matter to my friends be what i feel?I know they are right in what they say..I don't deny that but is what others feel worth me changing myself?Or me pretending to be someone i don't like??I really don't understand this fact..But i guess i am not supposed to understand everything..