It’s been a long time since I wrote anything. Well life has completely changed since then. I have started with a new job which I like, have made new friends whom I like (☺), have changed my way of living a little, have become more open to changes, have given myself room for making erroneous judgments and still be happy about them, have started wearing jeans more often (that too the relatively fitting ones!), have started looking forward to evenings with myself more, have started to try to think less (thanks to a friend who keeps on reminding me of how useless it is), have started to look for reasons and ways of cheering myself up from within me, have started going home early, have started expecting less and being more content, have started listening to music more, have started to looking forward to things like “gol gappas” and “chuskis” on a winter night and so much more….

Have finally started to grow up I think ☺

Ok.. Lets face the truth.. I am scared.. Actually so scared that i don't remember the last time i slept for an hour without waking up.. Life is revolving much much faster that i can catch up with.. Though i do feel that i am trying to get a grip on things, but its really tough.. How does one make oneself stop feeling something you feel so much! I guess i need to learn to make my mind rule my emotions.. And not vice versa!

Anyway.. As my gmail status message says.. It'll get better.. I hope..

Love..Aaj Kaal

Saw "Love Aaj Kal".. And all i could do was cry.. It was almost like seeing my life unfold in front of me.. I remember that scene where Dipika is sitting alone in her flat with just a candle light and crying.. And all I could think was that this is how I am going to end up too.. Alone.. I know that the movie had a happy ending, well it had to.. It's a movie but I don't think my life is going to end up in a happy ending..

I can't believe that life has reached such a stage.. I seemed to have lost so much of me.. It's almost like i have to find my footing all over again.. Never in my life have i wanted to cry and have had no one to call.. Never have i felt so vulnerable.. Never have i looked for a hug and found no one to hug me back :-(

Everyday I hope that things get better.. But they seemed to have just get worse..