Last week was such a mess..I don't know why god is punishing Appy for all my mistakes!I deserve to go through so much..Not him..He has never even hurt a fly!!And the worst is that i couldn't be with him when he wanted me the most.I know he will never forgive me for this..But i didn't know what to do..I wish i was there..I wish it was me instead of him..It hurts..